i hate you girl!

Come on! I know it`s gonna be a new year for the next year and of course new drama, new story and new blaaaaa..whatever urggg.......Guess what? I really hate those facebookers, you know those who love to update their status everyday! In a nutshell, those who are addicted to facebook, what i wanna say is cut this crap and get a life,man!!! I don`t give a damn hell if your life is facebook cuz your status makes me feel exaggerating and annoying.You know what this person is a girl and she should have a real life not a virtual life! You`re making me sick,girl! Everytime I opened my facebook,there willl be your status and so blaaaa...and one`s more, ohh..please!! I know you`re so damn lucky to have two guys in your life and a really DAMN LUCKY LIFE but please don`t too show off you`re trying to having an affair with someone that is working as a leader...and I really don`t give a damn care if you`re with another guy who`s been schooling in another school cuz that`s not my problem,daaa......you know what you`re really looks like a desperate girl who wants to have a boyfriend.Oh,come on, you cheap ass lady! i DON`T CARE if you`re my friend cuz I`m sick give a fake smile in front of you, you ass!! Oh please take me to another place where I won`t able to see her again.I`m totally sick with her so sick!!!!!Just go to hell,you asshole!!!

quotes of inspirational

“I believe in pink. I believe that laughing is the best calorie burner. I believe in kissing, kissing a lot. I believe in being strong when everything seems to be going wrong. I believe that happy girls are the prettiest girls. I believe that tomorrow is another day and I believe in miracles.” 

― Audrey Hepburn

“When one door of happiness closes, another opens; but often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one which has been opened for us.”
― Helen Keller

Roosevelt understood that one's prospects in life were not totally dependent on physical beauty, writing wistfully that "no matter how plain a woman may be if truth and loyalty are stamped upon her face all will be attracted to her."^[6]

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, 'Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?' Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”
― Marianne Williamson, Return to Love: Reflections on the Principles of "A Course in Miracles"

“For Attractive lips, speak words of kindness.
 For lovely eyes, seek out the good in people.
 For a slim figure, share your food with the hungry.
 For beautiful hair, let a child run their fingers through it once a day.
 For poise, walk with the knowledge that you never walk alone.
 People, more than things, have to be restored, renewed, revived, reclaimed, and redeemed. Remember, if you ever need a helping hand, you will find one at the end of each of your arms.
 As you grow older, you will discover that you have two hands, one for helping yourself and the other for helping others.”
― Sam Levenson

“And, when you want something, all the universe conspires in helping you to achieve it.”
― Paulo Coelho, The Alchemist

“Do what you feel in your heart to be right – for you’ll be criticized anyway.”
― Eleanor Roosevelt

“Isn't it nice to think that tomorrow is a new day with no mistakes in it yet?”
― L.M. Montgomery

“The worst part of success is trying to find someone who is happy for you.”
― Bette Midler

“Our greatest glory is not in never falling, but in rising every time we fall.”
― Confucius

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i seek your forgiveness

hey guys!Being a long time i did`nt update cuz i don`t have mood to tell ya..Now im in the middle of the story...Gosh! i hate facebook! Sometimes it makes me feel envy to own friends.This is crazy  but true.It shows that im not a good friendly person instead it`s like im nobody.That`s true im nobody but sometimes i feel envy to her because she had a good relationship with others while im not.Living in the school is like im became worst.My bad intention always in my mind.What should i do???And that`s way im scared to go back to hostel where i have to risk everything that uesd to be safe and lost everything,rite?I really want to be a good person and i really meant it.I know i can`t be an angel and at least people care about me or don`t know me.I really  don`t want people hates me.If i`d being given chances to move from this world,i bet i want it so badly.I just wanna people forgive all of my sins and forgive me.Please forgive me for what i have done towards anyone in this world.

talking in the middle of mornings

assalamualaikum n gud middle in the mornings! I just wanna talk about somebody I hate but in the same time I`m confius whether I like him or not..It`s just seems that I have some delusion problems.Why I hate him?Because he`s seeing another girl and just set me up!Sometimes if I ever see his face I really want to `stupify` him or `experliamus` him.He really made me furious cuz I thougt he was innocent but somehow I was blinded with his looks.He is a leader and he must not have any scandals just like the new leader ones.Why must the guys that I likely had a crush on must have their own taste?( I mean`their girls`)I`m so unlucky girl who had a dream to be love by a guy.Actually,all of this can just be a castle in the air not more than that.Now I determine to lead a simple life  with a minimum love story(don`t know if it does exist) Get on with a simple life....safe and sound but this only can be happen if I stay at home...ciao!

for you

which one?

assalamualaikum and salam ramadhan! it`s been a long time I had not update my story.It`s nothing but I miss to write something.Today is about missing someone and want someone.The person that I totally damn miss is someone who flew away far from here.The only left was memories with him.He helped me to change myself to be a better person and be a girl.He`s brutal ones but at the same time,he could be a nice guy(please! i won`t say `sweet guy`,ewwwww!)Everything about him was already become part of history and the history repeats again! Now,in earlier month,I had a crush toward someone and he`s one of my seniors.I don`t know how but what can I say? I`m kinda easily to fall in love with anyone who can melts my heart. You know what he did to me till my hells over the head? He`s just reply my smile and I started to questioning my feelings.The next guy was a new incomers...maybe I`m the one who perasan kot because I feel that he`s watching me padahal   other people kowt...Who knows?So I decide to myself that, just keep dreaming about the one that got away and I probably could let those fottiti feeling fly away.....thehehe.Ciao,guys and wassalam!

my drawings

 This is what did I feel when I know about the truth of him.

He`s already got a girlfriend!

He can go to ****!

 I have a boyfriend!

His name is Frankenstein!

 My lovely Digimon pets!

 ATTENTION GIRLS! this is not a wedding dress!

this is a combination dress from the past..

Jeng2 

The Other Boleyn Girl

Do you want to be part of them?

They are a happy family!

This is the most notable artist ever
She is me!
All my drawing are original!

monster..

I know there nothing connected with my life story but the songs full of disapointment and painful and that`s why i like it....

BIG BANG – Monster

오랜만이야 못 본 사이

O-raen-man-i-ya mot bon sa-i

그댄 얼굴이 좋아 보여

Geu-daen eol-gul-i joh-a bo-yeo

예뻐졌다 넌 항상 내 눈엔 원래

Ye-bbeo-jyeott-da neon hang-sang nae nun-en weon-rae

고와 보여

Go-wa bo-yeo

근데 오늘따라 조금 달라 보여

Geun-de o-neul-dda-ra jo-geum dal-la bo-yeo

유난히 뭔가 더 차가워 보여

Yu-nan-hi mweon-ga deo-cha-ga-weo bo-yeo

나를 보는 눈빛이 동정에 가득

Na-reul bo-neun nun-bich-i dong-jeong-e ga-deuk

차있어 네 앞에서 난 작아 보여

Cha-iss-eo ne ap-e-seo nan jak-a bo-yeo

괜찮은 척 애써 대화주제를 바꿔버려

Gwaen-chanh-eun cheok ae-sseo dae-hwa-ju-je-reul ba-ggweo-beo-ryeo

묻고 싶은 말은 많은데

Mud-go ship-eun mal-eun manh-eun-de

넌 딱 잘라버려

Neon ddak jal-la-beo-ryeo

네 긴 머린 찰랑거려

Ne gin meo-rin chal-lang-geo-ryeo

내 볼을 때리곤 스쳐지나

Nae bol-eul ddae-ri-gon seu-chyeo-ji-na

뒤돌아선 곧장 가버려

Dwi-dol-a-seon god-jang ga-beo-ryeo

여기서 널 잡으면 우스워지나

Yeo-gi-seo neol jab-eu-myeon u-seu-weo-ji-na

아무 말도 떠오르지 않죠

A-mu mal-do ddeo-o-reu-ji anh-jyo

떨면서 넌 한두 발짝 뒤로

Ddeol-myeon-seo neon han-du bal-jjak dwi-ro

이젠 내가 무섭단 그 말

I-jen nae-ga mu-seob-dan geu mal

날 미치게 하는 너란 달

Nal mi-chi-ge ha-neun neo-ran dal

I love you baby I’m not a monster

넌 알잖아 예전 내 모습을

Neon al-janh-a ye-jeon nae mo-seub-eul

시간이 지나면 사라져 버릴 텐데

Shi-gan-i ji-na-myeon sa-ra-jyeo beo-ril ten-de

그 땐 알 텐데 baby

Geu ddaen al ten-de baby

I need you baby I’m not a monster

날 알잖아 이렇게 가지마

Nal al-janh-a i-reoh-ge ga-ji-ma

너 마저 버리면 난 죽어버릴 텐데

Neo ma-jeo beo-ri-myeon nan juk-eo-beo-ril ten-de

I’m not a monster

무슨 일이 있어도 영원하자고

Mu-seun il-i iss-eo-do yeong-weon-ha-ja-go

슬플 때도 기쁠 때도 끝까지 하자고

Seul-peul ddae-do gi-bbeul ddae-do ggeut-gga-ji ha-ja-go

You don’t say that tomorrow

오늘이 마지막인 것처럼 사랑하자고

O-neul-i ma-ji-mak-in geot-cheo-reom sa-rang-ha-ja-go

너 없는 삶은 종신형 세상과

Neo eobs-neun salm-eun jong-shin-hyeon se-sang-gwa

단절돼 돌 지경이야

Dan-jeol-dwae dol ji-gyeong-i-ya

너란 존재는 고질병 시련의 연속

Neo-ran jon-jae-neun go-jil-byeong shi-ryeon-eui yeon-sok

마음 속 미련이야

Ma-eum sok mi-ryeon-i-ya

세상사람들이 내게 돌린 등

Se-sang sa-ram-deul-i nae-ge dol-lin deung

모든 것이 베베 꼬여있던 눈초리들

Mo-deun geos-i be-be ggo yeo itt-deon nun-cho-ri-deul

내게 가장 큰 아픔은 아픔은

Nae-ge ga-jang keun a-peum-eun a-peum-eun

네가 그들 같아졌단 것뿐

Ne-ga geu-deul gat-a-jyeott-dan geot-bbun

I love you baby I’m not a monster

넌 알잖아 예전 내 모습을

Neon al-janh-a ye-jeon nae mo-seub-eul

시간이 지나면 사라져 버릴 텐데

Shi-gan-i ji-na-myeon sa-ra-jyeo beo-ril ten-de

그 땐 알 텐데 baby

Geu ddaen al ten-de baby

I need you baby I’m not a monster

날 알잖아 이렇게 가지마

Nal al-janh-a i-reoh-ge ga-ji-ma

너마저 버리면 난 죽어버릴 텐데

Neo-ma-jeo beo-ri-myeon nan juk-eo-beo-ril ten-de

I’m not a monster

가지마 가지마 가지마 떠나지 말아

Ga-ji-ma ga-ji-ma ga-ji-ma ddeo-na-ji mal-a

하지마 하지마 하지마 너 같지않아

Ha-ji-ma ha-ji-ma ha-ji-ma neo gat-ji-anh-a

멀어진 채로 사랑은 걸러진 채로

Meol-eo-jin chae-ro sa-rang-eun geol-leo-jin chae-ro

찾지마 찾지마 찾지마 날 찾지 말아

Chat-ji-ma chat-ji-ma chat-ji-ma nal chat-ji mal-a

마지막 마지막 마지막

Ma-ji-mak ma-ji-mak ma-ji-mak

네 앞에 서 있는

Ne ap-e seo itt-neun

내 모습을 기억해줘

Nae mo-seub-eul gi-eok-hae-jweo

날 잊지 말아줘

Nal it-ji mal-a-jweo

I love you baby I’m not a monster

넌 알잖아 예전 내 모습을

Neon al-janh-a ye-jeon nae mo-seub-eul

시간이 지나면 사라져 버릴 텐데

Shi-gan-i ji-na-myeon sa-ra-jyeo beo-ril ten-de

그 땐 알 텐데 baby

Geu ddaen al ten-de baby

I need you baby I’m not a monster

날 알잖아 이렇게 가지마

Nal al-janh-a i-reoh-ge ga-ji-ma

너 마저 버리면 난 죽어버릴 텐데

Neo ma-jeo beo-ri-myeon nan juk-eo-beo-ril ten-de

I’m not a monster

I think I’m sick

I think I’m sick

I think I’m sick

I think I’m sick

 translation

It’s been a while since we’ve met
your face looks good
you got prettier, you were always beautiful in my eyes

But today you look a bit different
you look especially a bit cold
Your eyes that look at me are filled with pity
In front of you, I seem smaller

I tried to be fine, trying to change the subject
Though I had so much I wanted to ask you
You cut me off right away
Your long hair flowing
As it hit my cheek and passed away
You turn away and left right away
If I try to catch you here, would that be too ridiculous?

Nothing comes to my mind
As you tremble, you take a step, two steps back
You say that I scare you now
You’re like a moon that makes me go crazy I love you baby I’m not a monster

You know how I was in the past
When time passes, it’ll all disappear
Then you will know baby
I need you baby I’m not a monster
You know me so don’t leave like this
If even you throw me away, I will die
I’m not a monster

No matter what happens, let’s be forever
When we’re sad, when we’re happy, let’s go till the end
You don’t say that tomorrow
Let’s love like today is the last

A life without you is like an imprisonment for life
an extinction from the world to the point where I’d go crazy
Your existence is a chronic disease, a repetition of pain
You’re a lingering attachment in my heart

The people of the world have turned their backs against me
The corners of their eyes are all twisted up
The greatest pain to me,
Is the fact that you became the same as them

I love you baby I’m not a monster
You know how I was in the past
When time passes, it’ll all disappear
Then you will know baby
I need you baby I’m not a monster
You know me so don’t leave like this
If even you throw me away, I will die
I’m not a monster

Don’t go, don’t go, don’t go, don’t leave me
Don’t do it, don’t do it, don’t do it, it’s not like you
Getting farther away, love is breaking apart

Don’t find me, don’t find me, don’t find me, don’t look for me
The last, last, last image of me in front of you – remember that
Don’t forget me

I love you baby I’m not a monster
You know how I was in the past
When time passes, it’ll all disappear
Then you will know baby
I need you baby I’m not a monster
You know me so don’t leave like this
If even you throw me away, I will die
I’m not a monster

I think I’m sick
I think I’m sick
I think I’m sick
I think I’m sick